Something caught me off guard this morning and I ended up in tears at work. Unsurprisingly this lead to emotional eating and stuffing up my last day of detoxing which on a whole I’ve done pretty successfully despite this week being pretty tough. I’m not going to dwell on it but there are definitely lessons to be learnt which I will reflect on later. But for now I will continue to sip my lemon & soda water, finish the last hour of work and absolutely smash my workout tonight.
We have just received some sad news today normally i’d go buy food to try and cheer myself up but that’s not an option today because I’m on day 2 of detox and survived day 1 without any slip ups and i’m not about to undo all my hard work and determination. Hanging out for dinner time so I can make myself another delish Kumara Salad, seriously I’ve never been so excited for a salad it was beyond tasty!
Since the middle of May I’ve been working hard to put my health first which sometimes means making things like gym classes and PT sessions a priority with everything else falling behind. I’m not the kind of person who has always done this. In the past catch ups with friends, family, hair appointments and anything else came first before my gym time. I will go to the gym anywhere between 4-6 times a week depending on my schedule which leaves 1 sometimes 2 if I’m lucky nights off after work where I spend time catching up with a friend/family or if I need the rest a quiet night at home which is a real luxury! I’m not rambling on about how busy I am or how much I have got on my plate for the sake of it let’s be honest this is reality for most people who work a full time job but I have realised this week that some of my family are feeling neglected because of it. Which frustrates me because I really do my best. I don’t go a day without talking or at least sending a txt to my parents and talk to my best friends most days. No I don’t have time to see people every week or several times a week always but it doesn’t mean I don’t care. The people who are feeling neglected I don’t think have a clue how little time I actually have to myself! I won’t make apologies for putting my own health and happiness first for a change. I neglected to do this for a very long time and needless to say I got nowhere. Instead I was beyond stressed, gained weight (emotional eating), got bad adult acne to the point where I had to take nasty medication to clear it and no solutions to any of the problems I was trying to solve because at the end of the day you can’t help people who don’t want the help. In conclusion I’m putting myself first for a little bit and I’m doing the best I bloody can.